43 ugh!!!

Howdy ho,

Well the crafting has been going resonably well over the past few days. I am having a bit of a problem with putting photos on here, ie I cant seem to find an easy way to do it (told you I am a total technophobe) I am sure you didnt have to put a photograph up using an url when I first started blogging :S  ANY HELP WITH THIS WOULD BE APPRECIATED XX  I will try again after I have finished typing to see if I can work it out for myself but I aint holding out much hope :P
I made a couple of 12 x 12 layouts and altered a wooden birdhouse, which I hope to show you.

As you can see from the title of my post I have had a birthday. I got a lovely surprise phone call from my bestie in Norway wishing me a happy birthday first thing in the morning which cheered me up no end. I didnt do anything, I aint really that big on birthdays to be honest it is another year older which depending on how I am feeling mentally or health wise will depend on how I take it lol
I aint growing old very gracefully (which I kinda thought I would be able to do) I keep getting tattoos (more about them later) cut my hair pretty short and have dyed it red. This has been a gradual process like, I didnt do all this on Monday for my birthday lol. I am pretty sure most people think I am having a mid life crisis (some have actually voiced that opinion)

I havent been looking after myself particularly well since Christmas. I suffer from depression. I have done for A LONG time but I have only been taking medication to help for a couple of years, when eventually I got to the point I couldnt pull myself up. I have had spates of "the blues" since my eldest was born (19 years ago this year) but I never liked to admit how down I often felt. I felt I couldnt confide in anyone as I have always tried to act like I am a super being that can manage it all (which I still do :S just me I guess) My mum (unknowing how I felt) used to always tut tut about people with "depression" saying that they just needed to get a grip, so of course because of this I was reluctant to admit I was feeling as bad as I was. For the most point over the years I had always been able to pick myself up relatively easily, but a couple of years back I just got to the point I couldnt do it and with encouragement of my best friend I went to see the doctor. I think if I didnt have other health problems which make me feel tired and unwell I would be pretty good but as I have MS too, sometimes the fatique I feel makes the depression feel worse, a vicious circle really.

Anyway on a cheerier note, I am going out with hubby and our neighbours at the weekend for a meal (neighbours birthday is tomorrow so him and Mal cooked up a plan to have a joint celebration at the weekend.

Right I will go try to upload some pics, if that fails I will just put in link to my YouTube where you can watch the videos I did of my crafting efforts over the weekend.

Thank you for stopping by and feel free to comment at anytime, I would love to hear from you all

x

PHOTO FAIL lol - here is the link to my Youtube instead http://www.youtube.com/user/faeriecrafts/videos?view=0